Monday, December 14, 2015


It's almost end of the year. And I am looking forward to 2016. I am still feeling a little blue though.


It's almost end of the year. And I am looking forward to 2016. I am still feeling a little blue though.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015


I don't know if I have done the right thing. It feels like I have compromised myself just for the sake of so-called friendship. It made me question a lot of things. Sure I was right when I confronted and asked was wrong. The answer was obviously immature and out of my hands. What I'm not sure is, I said is to pretend like nothing happened and start over. I felt like I compromised. I felt like I gave in to a manipulative tactic. Sure she says she doesnt prevent me from doing stuff with other people, but she has to distance herself from me. Clearly, this is jealousy. I tried to assure that I won't ditch, but it seems wrong. It feels one-sided. Well since she said she shouldnt prevent me from doing stuff im still gonna go with some people I liked. If I get another cold treatment, well, it's time to rethink about things.

I hope that will be the last time I'm chasing.

Sunday, August 30, 2015


Today, I decided to do a bit of jogging after being on hiatus from "work out" for almost two months. Been gaining weight (again), due to the past few weeks of eating out. I can feel my thigh grew bigger as I struggled to put on my pants.

Mom is on vacation, and I am missing her, despite our everyday bickering sessions. It's just me and Dad again. So, back to errand duties, I guess.

I seriously need some motivation so I can budget my expenses and finally reach that target number.

I've been struggling but obviously I overspend with food. I should probably just stick to budget meals until then.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Going Freelance

I had this idea of trying freelance work for the following reasons:

-To have a source of income, should I decide to quit my job/got fired/account closed and I don't have a new one lined up (extra cash too)
-To use it as as my platform for developing writing skills. I still haven't forgotten about that dream of having my work getting published.

So, it's been a month since I started setting up my online accounts. It's like job hunting all over again, but this time, I am working directly with clients. I am working from home. While it seems like a liberating feeling, it's not as easy as it seems. In fact I am having some second thoughts. But it's still worth trying. Here are some of my realizations:

-I need to market myself
-I need to identify all the skills I can put to good use
-I need to be patient as offers doesnt come often
-I need to take this seriously
-I need to set a time of how much I can do
-I need to find a workspace

Yep! the last one is very important. You cannot work on your bed, I guarantee that. So with all these things, I have set some guidelines for myself. And some kind of a deadline/trial period. Hopefully, something good will come out of this.

Monday, July 27, 2015


They say nothing is permanent in this world-except for change. It happens, either for the good or the bad. Sometimes, we have no choice but to embrace it. For some, they welcome it with arms wide open. 

I've been thinking about changing a part of my life- but I've been too afraid to leave my comfort zone. All the fears are making me think twice whether or not I should take the risk. Yet, I know if I stay where I am, I might end up more than just being miserable. All these paranoia is taking a toll on me. Suddenly, all I could think of right now is to have some time-out/time off and reflect. The only thing that's stopping me is money. I have some fund stashed away, but it can only last for a while. I need to make sure that when I'm ready to go back, I won't be begging anyone for financial support. Ayokong maging pabigat sa kahit kanino. But how am I gonna do this? There's one thing I could think of. In fact I have already started. Maybe I should think of a plan B. I've got five months to do this. I can do this. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Thank you

Thank you, Lord, for giving me another day, another year to live. Im not feeling as good as I should be, but I know that I am blessed. I'm sorry if I have overlooked on those things that matter.

I had a wonderful vacation. As much as I want to extend. I know I have to face the reality. I have a dilemma to resolve. This may be a risky move, but at this moment, it seems like a good idea.