Saturday, December 31, 2011

Approaching 2012

Oh yes, new year's eve. What can I say?... Well, 2011 has been an emotional roller coaster. No, actually, that's just an understatement. It was really one heck of a ride. As always, I'm hoping to make better decision for the coming year as I know this will affect how I will live my life.

I've been given opportunities not everyone have been entitled to... gone to places beyond my comfort zone. It was also the time I realized that I need take a different road because I couldn't go any further with what I feel is not my path. I'm not totally closing my doors, though. I just need to make sure that I'm making it right this time. So the next time I take a ride on a plane, it will be a happier trip to somewhere as a reward for myself for all the hard work.Or maybe a journey to a new and better opportunity where I can take whoever I want to. Whatever will work, I have to find out.

I might have come back empty-handed, but I had so much lessons learned. And I knew that whatever taken away will be replaced with something better. I felt disappointed when I lost the only thing I earned. But after a while, I received blessings more than I expected. I'm spending the holidays with my loved ones. So there's no reason for me to feel bad. And maybe I shouldn't be feeling pressured at all. Because it's all up to me how I will make myself successful.

I'm looking forward to 2012, not just because it's year of the dragon (again) but it's another time for opportunities, risks to take and goals to pursue.

Happy new Year!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

7 days to go!

Can you believe it? Christmas day is just one week away, and 2012 is two weeks to go. As if time was on fast forward. A lot of people are crowded on the shopping malls, hurrying from one store to another. I could tell that most of them are looking for the best and cheapest exchange gifts. Some are heading through the botique stores, probably looking for a nice dress to wear at Christmas parties. Sometimes, it makes me wonder if they have really no budget for Christmas. Because I could hear a lot of people complaining about having too much expenses during Christmas. Oh well...

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Family Matters

Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit may mga taong sadyang ubod ng kapal ng mukha. Yung tipong hangga't walang tumututol eh sige lang ng pananamantala. Wapakels sa ibang tao, hangga't di siya nagsasalita eh okay lang. Lalo na sa mga issue na maselan. Tulad neto.

So one boring day nag bonding-bonding kami ni dear cuz (DC). Tapos habang nagpapahinga sa aming bahay, marami kaming napag usapan. Hanggang sa napunta kami sa mga half siblings. madalas na kasi namamalagi ang erpats ni DC sa kanilang palasyo lately. Kasama si baby girl(BG). At doon na nga nagsimulang mabunyag ang lahat. Na unti- unti na silang nag mi-migrate sa palasyo nila DC. Nagulat lang siya, dahil yung half-sibling nyang si Middle Child (MC) eh nagtransfer na sa iang school malapit sa kanila. At narinig nya nga ang usapan between erpat and the other woman (OW). Isa sa mga narinig nya eh sinabi ni OW na mag-decorate daw at gusto din daw niya eh kumpleto sila sa pasko. Ay wow! BAHAY MO ATE?! Hindi na rin napigilan ni DC na maiyak kaya inaya ko na rin mag maboteng usapan.

Sa madaling salita, after a few years ng pananahimik ng mga pinsan ko sa bahay
, eh biglang nag-mainstay ang erpats nila-with her second siblings. KALOKA!


So napag planuhan na namin na sabihin muna sa isa pa naming pinsan. Kasi warfreak ang amin mga tiyahin pati si mothergoose.

Nakakairita talaga. Kung ako yung nasa lugar ni DC hindi ko yata maatim na manahimik habang nakikita ko unti unti na silang andun sa palasyo. In the first place may bahay naman sila bakit hindi sila pumirmi dun!kung malayo eh di magtiis kayo!Kung pwede ko lang i-wish na multuhin kayo...pero ayoko naman mandamay ng mga nanahimik na kaluluwa. wish ko lang eh tubuan ng konsensiya at hiya.

Tanggap na naman ng angkan namin na may mga anak at ibang pamilya na si erpats ni DC . swerte nga ng kabit pangalawang asawa at di na kailangan ng annulment. Pero pucha naman, para bigla siyang mamalagi sa bahay ng mga halos inabandona niyang mga anak-kasama pa yung mga half-siblings nila.... KONTING RESPETO naman sa dating maybahay. Kung hindi niya talaga siya minahal noon, sana kahit respeto lang bigyan niya. Wag niyang hintaying karma pa ang magturo sa kanya kung paano gawin iyon.

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Diba NF?

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Phobia

Siguro kaya minsan vague ang blog posts ko ay masyado akong takot-takot akong mahusgahan ng ibang tao, lalo na kung sobrang malaki ang pagkakaiba sa pananaw ng karamihan. At hindi rin ako mapakali sa isang blog.

Lahat naman tayo ay may kinatatakutan. Pero ang masama, marami sa atin ang nakakubli dahil sa mga sarili nating kinatatakutan-sa multong tayo na rin mismo ang may gawa. mahirap aminin pero isa ako sa mga taong madalas pangunahan ng takot. Masyado akong takot sa sasabihin ng iba sa tuwing may gusto akong gawin. Parang lagi akong may approval ng ibang tao bago gumawa ng mga bagay-bagay.

Pero maraming nangyari na nagimpluwensya sa pagiisip ko ngayon. Marami rami na din akong opinyon ng karamihan na di ko na masangayunan. Pero may kaunti pa rin akong takot sa tuwing ihahakbang ko ang sarili patungo sa direksyon na maaring hindi maintindihan ng iba.

Oo, malungkot ako, pero alam kong hindi ako pababayaan ni Lord. Sana lang ay maging malinaw sakin ang lahat at hindi mapuno ng pagisisisi at what ifs ang buhay ko.

Friday, October 7, 2011

GGB

Fast forward. 2011 is about to end in two months. So much turning points happened. To be honest, I am having an emotional roller coaster. Few weeks ago, I was feeling all happy and blessed. The following week, I would feel too down that I would lock up in my room and curl up on the bed, especially on bad weather days.

I'm a bit frustrated with what's happening lately, but I guess that's part of finding the right path. I just hope that this time, things won't be forced out, so I won't be messing up anymore. Looking forward to 2012.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

what's happening?

I have so much things in my mind. But I can't seem to write them off. I need to vent out all these bad vibes I've been getting.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Ang Mga Kaibigan ni Mama Susan

I thought Bob Ong won't be writing again. But I was thrilled to find out he released his 8th book. Based on some reviews (and spoilers), its genre is more of a suspense horror. So I gave this one a shot, since I've been looking for a good book to read. Well, his books have been on a reasonable price, of course.

I read through the first few pages. The whole story is set to be told from a journal/diary of the main character(Galo), who is also the narrator. He is writing up on a journal as part of his requirements. It starts when his professor seemed to have lost the first set of his notebook, so he had to write something all over again. Unlike the typical students, Galo had put on something more of his personal dilemmas.

Galo continued to write on his journal, until his sudden trip to the province to visit his Lola where uncanny things are bound to happen. It was there he discovered a lot of things about his grandmother his family and the years after he left the province. If you are up to the challenge, try reading this at night when everyone's sleeping. It will give you that creepy impression, and if by chance you have a creative imagination, it might keep you awake for a few more hours.

I have always liked his books, even when he turned serious. Events were dragging in the middle of the story, but it didn't ruin much of the whole novel. I know this sounds funny but he is one inspiration that you don't need to have a prestigious degree in order to tell a story that will grab someone's attention.

Catching up with old friends

When life's tempo seems to have been running too fast, all I wanna do is to just lock myself in my room and browse until I feel sleepy. I don't mean to sound emo, but I've been wanting more "me" time lately, even if I'm not that busy at all. Maybe I am too stressed with what's been happening lately. I wanted to plan my goals for 2011, but somebody had already... I don't wanna talk about it.

Anyway, As I considered to spend First Sunday by re-arranging my room, and old college friend invited me to have late lunch down south(Balinsasayaw). I immediately turned down, since I might not be allowed to go out since well, Sunday is a family day. But to my surprise, they just told me not to stay out too long blah blah blah... Nah. They just meant be safe. Hehe.

So I went out and (slightly) surprised my friends by calling them at the last minute. It was flattering that somehow, they missed me after skipping countless adventures with them. Oh well, people have been busy after college. Some had been studying Med, some are already working, and some of us are still... freelance. But the one-liner rants and jokes are still the same.





(Too bad I got another bout of flu because the weather got too cold[Tagaytay]!**Sniff** And I had to leave earlier because traffic north bound was getting reeeaaaaally heavy. Thanks!)

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy (?) New Year...

So much has happened for the past year. It was overwhelming that everything had taken its course in just twelve months. And in 2011, we will be facing yet another changes in life. Some will be good, and some will be uh... not so. I'm still thankful for 2010 although things got kind of messed up somewhere in the middle. If this had something to do with not keeping the "self-control" I have no idea. All I want for this year is to give a chance to prove what I still need to. *Sigh* I guess some things are out of my hands.