Tuesday, August 27, 2013

looking at the brighter side..

Just when I though OT week is over... there will be another one today. Sigh. Well at least I had six hours sleep which will hopefully help me survive the night. let's just wait how much this will reap.

I am looking forward to my next paycheck, since I am almost drained. Although it pays me well, I can't help but feel like I've been robbed with the taxes that has been deducted on me. especially if you knew exactly where it goes- undeserving, selfish, greedy, incapacitated... you know who they are. I really hope that this medieval system changes.

On a lighter note and totally different topic, I finally had a check up with an Orthopedic regarding my left foot. Turns out, my suspicion was right, it is a plantar fascitis. The doctor advised that I go for shoes that have softer pads or put on some cushion. Thankfully, it is still okay to continue running just as long as it doesn't hurt. I've been prescribed with anti-inflammatory meds for a week. I'm gonna have a short run tomorrow just to start up my postponed 10k training. Hopefully a month will be enough.

Monday, August 26, 2013

Sumpong Sunday

I feel bad. very very bad. I should be thankful for this Sunday, I had a great family time with my parents. But here I am, in a bad mood,crying cause my bf was already asleep-he said he was already sleepy and had been up for work since 5 am. As a mature, level-headed person, I should understand this- specially when it's past 12 midnight already. But since I'm sooo immachoor and brat- I am mad. I feel like he's just too bored to have a chat with me and just wanted to play games or do a series marathon without any disturbance. Heck I know he would still be up at this time if he's really not yet sleepy. I know I could just give a buzz when he's idle and he's still there. I am fucking too paranoid. This not good. Not only I am clingy, but I am giving him the satisfaction- I'm showing fear of losing him, which I should not. Sigh. I should let go of my past traumatic experience, learn my lesson and trust the one i'm with.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Rainy sentiments...

Tuesday. Called in sick for work, at ayaw na din naman ako papasukin ng tatay ko. Makikikain sana sa bday ni bf, pero di makaalis ng bahay, thanks to Maring. So now, pahinga mode sa bahay habang kumakati ang lalamunan. Ewan ko ba, may flu shot na nga pero tinamaan pa din.

Nakakaawa lang yung mga nastranded sa labas makapasok lang sa trabaho. Nakakasawa na din na taon taon nalang ganito ang eksena. Ang masaklap yung mga lugar na dating di binabaha, ayun lubog. Nakakainis tuloy isipin yung mga taong nasa posisyon eh pa banjing banjing lang. At yung pera na dapat eh napupunta sa makabuluhang bagay. Ayun, inangkin.

Dibale, kahit hindi ako relihiyosang tao, naniniwala naman ako sa 'divine justice.' Kung hindi man sila maparusahan ng bulok na sistema, malamang sa takdang panahon sa ibang paraan, may araw din yang mga yan.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Dear_______**

Warning: The next few paragraphs are product of mere imagination, along with other people's experience . Any resemblance to a person living or dead are entirely coincidental. Huwag po lagyan ng malisya.


Dear (put whoever name appropriate),

Well Hello! Well, let me just cut to the chase. I'd like to say some words. First of all, please set realistic goals. as much as we want to excel and to be on top of everything all the time, truth is, we can't. We all are just human beings, there will always be a room for mistakes how much we try to avoid it. Every individual has its own pace and the level of it cannot be upgraded overnight. it's a gradual process.

Second, I want you to try, just for once- be in the shoes of someone else. Would you really be able to do what is asked given the situation? Think about it.

lastly, please have some backbone to admit you're not always right. Nobody is perfect. ever. Cliche, but it is a fact. So man up.

So there, I've said my piece. I may not have the balls to say this bluntly, but at least I know that I should be a realist, not a perfectionist.

Sincerely,

Lucrecia